okay so ive been gone for a long time and you guys have missed a lot. so i started school on feb 16th yay me another semester at smc. my first day was going good i liked my speech class but then as i was walking across the campus i seen my first love with their new boyfriend. now in november09 me and my first love stopped talking so seeing them with someone who they never told me about threw me for a loop. i didnt wanna cry or anything like that i was shocked but i had a feeling this was gonna happen because hearing from someone a few weeks previous to that i was told me and my first loves boyfriend went to the same school. but still seeing that face made my heart stop, then hurt like crazy. i admit it i was hurt but then each time i saw them together it got to the point where it didnt even phase me anymore it got to the point where i would just laugh because it felt like we were on tv.

its crazy because my first love is someone who i never had sex with or never kissed, someone who i thought would always be there and now as the months grow were not there for each other. the day we met 31408 passed the other day and it wouldve been 2yrs but thats in the past i guess. its just crazy to me how life works out but i know ill be okay.

i had to write a post about that since most of my pervious post was about my first love so to let you know where we're at... () thats where loll nothing last forever!