right now i feel like I'm at a point in my life where i just really don't care about really anything. all i really want to do is get my GE classes out of the way so that next fall i can attend FIT. i have been through so much pain this year it doesn't make any sense. i also realized a lot about myself. i had to realize that its all in me, I'm all that i need and only i can be there for myself. it took me along time to realize that only can make myself happy. i know a lot of people out there want a boyfriend/girlfriend but me for some reason i don't. i get lonely at times but for the most part i feel all i need is myself its been that way for a long time now. i know i should "get out there" and find someone to love me but honestly i don't think i believe in love anymore. i know its sad to hear that come from me since Ive always believed that fairy tales come true but i don't anymore or if i do someone will have to shock me back into believing it. i really think me moving to New York for school will change me. not being around the same people i am now. making it by myself you know? i just wanna get away from everything and everybody and start fresh! i know it sounds like i might be trying to run away but I'm not i just want a new start a new life a new me. theres nothing wrong with change I've changed for the better so me moving to New York will be another transition in my life, a transition that I'm going to make work and make the best of.