kinda mad

so my bday was in july as you all know and my 1st loves bday was in august i bought them a gift card and went to their bday dinner but for my bday i didnt get anything and now their going to another state to see the one they love I'm not jealous at all its just like wow I see who's more important I know my place but damn that shit kinda hurts I've been dieing to say this to someone but ugh why bother i just feel the need to say it on my blog since its here so i can express myself im just so mad because like you know what about me like do you really not care that much like seriously ugh okay im done but that just made me so mad but w.e now like i said i see where their heart is now and Q doesnt matter!