kinda mad

so my bday was in july as you all know and my 1st loves bday was in august i bought them a gift card and went to their bday dinner but for my bday i didnt get anything and now their going to another state to see the one they love I'm not jealous at all its just like wow I see who's more important I know my place but damn that shit kinda hurts I've been dieing to say this to someone but ugh why bother i just feel the need to say it on my blog since its here so i can express myself im just so mad because like you know what about me like do you really not care that much like seriously ugh okay im done but that just made me so mad but w.e now like i said i see where their heart is now and Q doesnt matter!

ever since

Ever since i read this quote "sometimes it takes letting go to realize you were never really holding on to anything anyway". I realize I've been holding on to nothing for so long now. I've had a broken heart for a long time now and the person who broke it is in love w.someone else. I can finally say that I can see where their heart is at and its not w.me so its really time I move on and let go because in reality I'm not holding on to anything we've never been in a relationship or had sex so what am I holding on to? I'm holding to LOVE and even though people on the outside looking in say I'm stupid and etc I know in my heart that there will always be something there, its complicated and not for anyone else to understand but us but I know its time for a change and time for me to let someone love me the way I deserve so w.that being said [I'm single and ready to mingle]!

ily

this is my bestfriend Ashley we will always be bestfriends even if we dont talk or see each other as much as we use to we will always have that connection where we can finish each others sentences, a friendship like this will only grow stronger and we've been at this since 2001!




now if you know me you know i dont hang w.a lot of guys but this nigga right here is my guy bestfriend my only guy bestfriend i can tell him anything and count on him to always have my back and be ready to trip on any nigga or bitch and thats why we've been bestfriends since 2004!



this is my bestfriens Janay now you will almost always see me w.her she's a person who i can tell my secrets too talk to when im down to help me feel better and go with me to the hood loll nah but this is my best bestfriend blood couldnt make us any closer!



this is Jay i've been knowing her since she was little shes crazy as hell and loves to buy clothes, she has a closet full of clothes but when its time to go out she cant find anything to wear loll thats Jay for you!


my main bitch the same black bitch everybody loves to hate loll well i love her anything i need she gets it for me no questions asked shes the nicest bitch in the world if you get to know her!


Brittany bitch my favorite out of em all loll shes so laid back and doesnt give a fuck about shit and for that i love her!


Ashley and I been running the streets since 10th grade and ill just say the rest is history hahaha dont ask!


someone who's friendship will last a lifetime, whenever im feeling sad or alone he's there and he'll kill anybody who messes w.me & vice versa;threefourteenoheight!