realist shit i've ever seen loll

2010 :]

okay so I'm not finna write this blog off no sad type shit I'ma just say im glad the truth is out and I can continue moving on without feeling bad about it. I'm truely at peace with myself and the company im keeping its about to be 2010 and I know everybody always says their about to change for the new year well I'll just say I'm changing now while were still in 2009. I got rid of all the old problems in my life. GOD only knows what's ahead of me for 2010 but I feel like its gonna be a good year finishing up school in california and starting a new life in New York. I don't want to jinx myself but next year will be a good year!

GOD is good!

tomorrow were taking Christmas pictures for my grandma me,brittney,byron,&brandon my 3 first cousins I'll post pictures tomorrow! gn Manhattan :]

I should really get started on my fashion blog I've just been so tired but I promise I'll start posting new things on it!

trip to Rodeo

I had to take pictures of the Chanel store for a project in my fashion1 class here are some pictures of our little adventure loll

I usually dont get bored but omfg today was so boring maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan I can't wait to be in New York this shit sucks I hate California well not hate but I'm over it!

Gosssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssh its almost Christmas an only childs favorite holiday :]

I'm really bored though and when I get bored I delete stuff like all my buddies on aim even though it was only like 10 people I dont want it anymore and I'm thinking about deleting my facebook I'm just over everything I want NO I need a CHANGE somethings gotta happen soon something good though! GOD pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

fun at school

so the trident gum people came to smc and painted peoples faces to look like the new double layer trident gum and they gave us 20$ you know i got my dub! loll look...

when people bring up birthdays i laugh my ass off at the fact i didnt get anything loll lmfao but "what we got another nigga wont get" lmfao straight bullshit!

spring2010

spring2010 four classes at smc four classes at lattc online
can me and ashley do it? loll yeah we can its all for New York! :]

I have a big ass headache idk why I'm not sleep but i can say that I'm at peace everything is coming together again and moving to New York is so much closer... I'm regular i guess its just i wanna tell someone something but why bother I'm tired just tired of being tired it sucks when the good memories are canceled out by the bad memories smh....

No need to call my phone
I changed my number today
And matter fact
I think I'm moving away
Sorry, the frustration's
Got me feeling that way
And I just keep having
One last thing to say

I just wanna hold you
Touch you, Feel you
Be near you, I miss you
Baby baby baby
I'm tired of tryna fake through
But there's nothing I can do
I can't wait to hate you

oh oh oh and when more then one person tells you something about somebody try to take heed and listen and get out fast loll GOD is good! ;p

happy thanksgiving!

sighhhhhhhhhhhh i feel so good knowing everything and GOD has had a plan for me this whole time and kept me from getting more hurt then i couldve and I THANK GOD for that im so happy right now GOD is so good!

this was truly a bangN ass thanksgiving! :]

Carrie Bradshaw is gonna find love one day! ;]

btw to every person who ive ever said i love you to i probably didnt love you ive only loved one person and thats pancakeface forever idc what anybody says or thinks if i said it to you i didnt mean it but if you did cause me pain and made me feel bad or sad fuck you and thats why its money & fashion over everybody!

but i have this feeling that in the end im going to be okay im kinda ready to say i love you to someone else when i find that person but i just feel so peaceful everything is let go and i feel good all i see is New York and more happy days ahead of me anyway uhhh what else? nothing left to say i guess ill blog when i have a new topic im off this being sad tip it doesnt matter anymore seriously!

lemme just say this after lastnight idc anymore like really im so turned off ugh New York come save me please!

[qbirdsong] you got your wish!

GOD PLEASE!

truth!

They say if you love something, you've got to let it go.

And if it comes back, then it means so much more.

But if it never does, at least you will know,

That it was something you had to go through to grow.

i really want to go!

big sigh

so you keep telling me that I'm human and you understand that I get mad and say stupid stuff in my aways and you don't care what I say you'll still be here and for that I love you even more. I know you probably always think its something w.me but its when people tell me things about their love life then I think about how I never experienced it w.anybody because your the only person I've ever wanted to be in love with. It hurts so badly to know that everything I want to do w.you you spent the last idk year doing it w.someone else and I really sat there thinking that one day that'll be me and I would get my fairytale but as the months grew I started getting very insecure. I thought it was because of the way I looked or because I don't have a car or the way I dress or talk or people I hang out with or even my body. I spent a long time thinking I was ugly and still to this day I don't think I look good enough for you. I've wanted to tell you this for so long but for what? I'm tired of thinking or trying to make something out of nothing I know you said friends first but times up I'm leaving to New York in a while and the way I'm feeling right now I don't ever want to come back. Don't feel bad for anything I'm saying its my fault you didn't make me fall in love w.you it was my choice. It was my fault I realized I was in love w.you when you were on the verge of making something happen w.someone else. I'm thankful that you showed me love you showed me that even though you were w.somebody I still meant something in your life. It may not have been the love that I wanted but it was close enough. I know you say you want me to go out and fall in love but this big ole heart of mime doesn't feel like it use to its filled w.a lot of pain and it hurts still I thought I was over it and you but talking to other people doesn't do anything for me. I may have had sex w.them but I really don't feel anything for them really. Its sad that your all I think about when I wake and go to sleep and throughout the day. I bet you didn't know a lot of this I bet you didn't know how I really felt and that's a little bit my fault since I never wanted to get close to you because I didn't want to bother you and bug you. I would love to talk on the phone w.you like we use to but I know that won't happen. There's just a lot I wish we could've done but will never get to do and when I think about it it breaks my heart a little more because I don't want to go out and start all over w.someone else and fall in love w.them I wanna stay in love w.you but its killing me inside to know that you don't feel the same way, but I guess that's life and I really need to get over it nothings promised and 031408 will forever be nothing more then a strong friendship!

song says it all

Now you can wait your whole life wondering
When it's gonna come or where it's been.
You may have got your heart broken
A few times in the past
Never last strong as it used to,
Don't feel as good as it used to (before)
And all the things you used to say,
Things you used to do, went right out the door

Oh no more, will you be the one
That's what you tell everyone around you
But you know they've heard it all before
What more can you say
When love won't let you, walk away
And you can't help who you love
And you find yourself giving it away
When you think you're in love

[CHORUS:]
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)

Now you can wait your whole life tryna change
What the fear from what it's been
You may have put your whole life into a man
Loving what you thought that could've been.
Don't wanna swing your change
When you don't feel as good as you used to (before)
And everything you used to say,
Everything you used to do clear right out the door

Oh no more, will you be the one
That's what you tell everyone around you
But you know they've heard it all before
What more can you say
When love won't let you, walk away
And it can't help who it loves
And you find yourself giving it away
When you think you're in love

[CHORUS]
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)

Everybody say
I wanna be the one you love
I wanna be (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one you trust
I wanna be (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one you need
I wanna be (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one
I wanna be the one (sent from heaven)

[CHORUS:]
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)

I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)

SO I'M DONE W.LOVE UNTIL I MOVE TO NEW YORK AND CAN FIND THAT FAIRYTALE LOVE I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR!

there comes a time in your life when you outgrow old friends and its for the better. you must surround yourself w. positive people who have good vibes and spirits. i now know this and i have only been around my friend ashley lately. weve always been friends on and off in highschool but have let all the drama go we had between us and it has made our friendship stronger. in the fall of 2010 she will be all i have when we move to New York and start our lifes in the world of fashion for school loll i cant wait!

here are some pictures of me and ashley i found in my camera...
us at work Nordstrom Rac[k]loll


us idk what we were doing but okay?loll ohhh we were going to H&M haha

right now i feel like I'm at a point in my life where i just really don't care about really anything. all i really want to do is get my GE classes out of the way so that next fall i can attend FIT. i have been through so much pain this year it doesn't make any sense. i also realized a lot about myself. i had to realize that its all in me, I'm all that i need and only i can be there for myself. it took me along time to realize that only can make myself happy. i know a lot of people out there want a boyfriend/girlfriend but me for some reason i don't. i get lonely at times but for the most part i feel all i need is myself its been that way for a long time now. i know i should "get out there" and find someone to love me but honestly i don't think i believe in love anymore. i know its sad to hear that come from me since Ive always believed that fairy tales come true but i don't anymore or if i do someone will have to shock me back into believing it. i really think me moving to New York for school will change me. not being around the same people i am now. making it by myself you know? i just wanna get away from everything and everybody and start fresh! i know it sounds like i might be trying to run away but I'm not i just want a new start a new life a new me. theres nothing wrong with change I've changed for the better so me moving to New York will be another transition in my life, a transition that I'm going to make work and make the best of.

today

I decided to start going back to church every sunday, bible study every week all that. Maybe soon I'll get baptized I never have before but right now im not ready to I need to get my life right first! I was happy when the pastors sons wife asked me to help her with the church fashion show she's been wanting to put on for some time now I think that'll look good on my resume for school also. I know me not having a job anymore is bad but everything happens for a reason and I know GOD has my back!

& I THANK GOD!

La Fashion Week

so the La Fashion Week Fashion Show was yesterday and i didnt go loll but pancakeface did and sent me a picture of the banner i hope one day soon i can be a stylist working backstage :]

feel like writing

i feel like writing loll uhhh well school has been going good ive been killing w.my essays in my classes my teachers love them and they love that i already have my majors picked and doing everything i have to do to get me to FIT i really want to go to FIT but then again im thinking about FIDM i dont know when we go to New York me and ashley are gonna look at the schools we want to go to and what we need to do in order for us to get in.

at peace!

So the store finally opened last thursday the 8th and it was busy very busy i didnt expect for it to be so crowed because people are suppose to be "saving money" loll but overall it has been fun and going by kinda fast i just want the money and experience on my resume, the money im saving for New York this new years and the experience for when i get another job paying more hopefully loll. So you know how over the last couple of months i have been unhappy but i can honestly say i am at peace now no worry about anything too major except school which i have a handle on and work which is getting easier by the day. i guess you can say my love life is still on hold its just that theres no one who catches my eye and i dont go looking for love like most people and kinda dont care too much to find im not saying im scared of getting my heart broken again its just blah you know but if i do happen to come across someone im not gonna run im gonna stay and see where it goes hopefully somewhere good. uhhhhhhhhhh what else idk ive just been at peace snd feeling good i could use a little more sleep so with that being said im going to stay in for a couple of weekends 1.i can sleep after work and 2.it saves me money loll. Oh and i will be at universal studios this halloween if anybody else is going if you see me say wsup! Well uhhh im outta here until next time bye!

Im okay

Okay so the last post I posted Iwas angry af, hurt, all of the above but now I'm regular these past couple of weeks have been so good despite not having a car and its starting to rain i know my mom is doing her best to get me one by the end of the month i hope she does i pray that she does!

kinda mad

so my bday was in july as you all know and my 1st loves bday was in august i bought them a gift card and went to their bday dinner but for my bday i didnt get anything and now their going to another state to see the one they love I'm not jealous at all its just like wow I see who's more important I know my place but damn that shit kinda hurts I've been dieing to say this to someone but ugh why bother i just feel the need to say it on my blog since its here so i can express myself im just so mad because like you know what about me like do you really not care that much like seriously ugh okay im done but that just made me so mad but w.e now like i said i see where their heart is now and Q doesnt matter!

ever since

Ever since i read this quote "sometimes it takes letting go to realize you were never really holding on to anything anyway". I realize I've been holding on to nothing for so long now. I've had a broken heart for a long time now and the person who broke it is in love w.someone else. I can finally say that I can see where their heart is at and its not w.me so its really time I move on and let go because in reality I'm not holding on to anything we've never been in a relationship or had sex so what am I holding on to? I'm holding to LOVE and even though people on the outside looking in say I'm stupid and etc I know in my heart that there will always be something there, its complicated and not for anyone else to understand but us but I know its time for a change and time for me to let someone love me the way I deserve so w.that being said [I'm single and ready to mingle]!

ily

this is my bestfriend Ashley we will always be bestfriends even if we dont talk or see each other as much as we use to we will always have that connection where we can finish each others sentences, a friendship like this will only grow stronger and we've been at this since 2001!




now if you know me you know i dont hang w.a lot of guys but this nigga right here is my guy bestfriend my only guy bestfriend i can tell him anything and count on him to always have my back and be ready to trip on any nigga or bitch and thats why we've been bestfriends since 2004!



this is my bestfriens Janay now you will almost always see me w.her she's a person who i can tell my secrets too talk to when im down to help me feel better and go with me to the hood loll nah but this is my best bestfriend blood couldnt make us any closer!



this is Jay i've been knowing her since she was little shes crazy as hell and loves to buy clothes, she has a closet full of clothes but when its time to go out she cant find anything to wear loll thats Jay for you!


my main bitch the same black bitch everybody loves to hate loll well i love her anything i need she gets it for me no questions asked shes the nicest bitch in the world if you get to know her!


Brittany bitch my favorite out of em all loll shes so laid back and doesnt give a fuck about shit and for that i love her!


Ashley and I been running the streets since 10th grade and ill just say the rest is history hahaha dont ask!


someone who's friendship will last a lifetime, whenever im feeling sad or alone he's there and he'll kill anybody who messes w.me & vice versa;threefourteenoheight!

Don't let em walk over your heart!

This post are for some of my friends.

PLEASE UNDERSTAND THIS...
if your a year or 2 younger then a nigga and their asking you to do for you them[DONT]
then think if they would do it for you. When you really sit there and think "would he buy me some shoes?" the answer is NO! if he could buy you some shoes "he would've by now" please be smart, i know you think you love them or they tell you what you want to hear but if a nigga is asking you to do something for him and your not wifey smh "WAKE UP"because you look stupid as fuck.

So with that being said NEXT;

I am me Qunnuell

I am me Qunnuell I have 3 real bestfriends and 4 real friends. I don't like people because of the stuff they do and say but I'll never show it because I don't like hurting peoples feelings. I guess that makes me "fake" owell. I don't hold grudges because I can't stay mad at anyone for too long. I now realize that I have to live my life for me and no one else. I love fashion. I hate children. I've been in love once and will always love that person even if their married w.5kids or missing an eye I will always love them. I now realize that i have to let that person go and live my life but I know that they'll be there through it all! I will do anything for the people I love especially if I have the money. I can tell my mom anything and for that I love her. Family first! but I consider my friends to be family. I have a past and in it I have done things I regret but cannot take back but my past has made me who I am now a very strong man inside and out. I am me Qunnuell!

fun at work

so at work we have this river thing that the kids play in but one of the kids put some of the bubble mix we use for our bubble zone oh btw the water refilters so the bubbles just kept coming loll it was fun watching chris take the bubbles out but he got lazy!

Money :-$

I haven't wrote a blog in a few days so i thought i would just say a few things about "money". If you have it you have it you don't, you don't. Please stop talking about getting it in your aways and in songs or just as a topic that shit is really thirsty and must mean you don't have any ever! I have been very BLESSED in my life and i thank GOD everyday that money isn't a big worry for me and mine but come on people some of you take it too far its really not that serious like for real for real get it how you can but don't broadcast that shit! :p

"make that money, don't let it make you!"

Fall

Fall needs to hurry up and start I'm really tired of summer and want to start school.

Oh me and my best friend Janay found our flights and hotel for New York were staying from 12/27-1/02/10 Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm this should be fun we found really good prices everything came out to about 1200$ for round trip tickets and the hotel so 600$ between us shouldn't be hard plus extra to take to spend were gonna be good!

early friday morning

So I'm here sitting here watching old episodes of "STYLISTA" this show gives me hope that one day when i have my fashion merchandising and journalism degrees i can go on there and win or maybe even make a name for myself in the industry. I'm really serious about my dream coming true and living happily in New York working at a major magazine. the idea of being me surrounded by that much fashion all the time is i don't know better then sex loll nah but i really cant wait until school starts I'm gonna work extra hard on my dream. I'm even going to take Spanish, French, and Chinese i think those are languages i need to really know! I pray to GOD everynight that i stay focused and not to let anything get in my way i hope he can hear me and help me make everything good happen!

SOME OLD PICTURES OF ME WAITING ON THE REDLINE AHHH ONE DAY ILL BE RIDING THE SUBWAY IN NEW YORK :]



TRUST, BELIEVE, AND HAVE FAITH!
FAITH overcomes FEAR!

Beach...Fun Times

so saturday my bestfriend invited me to go to Dockweiler Beach with her family AKA the whole Pasadena loll it was fun though here are some pictures...

oh and the buried me in the sand loll look...





uhhhh had a little too much to drink loll




look at this dumb bitch chase me loll

Light Vs. Dark

Stupidest video ever!

LightSkin/DarkSkin it doesnt matter
;p

I watch this video everyday loll

Someone To Love You - Ruff Endz
FairyTales do come true! :D

loooooook!

so thats my little fashion corner loll where i do all my work


i was bored


really bored!

Getting Closer

When I walk into a clothing store and look at different items of clothing I see them in my mind on a manakin I instantly know how something is going to look on me before I pick it up its weird but man this must mean its real "fashion" really is my life and me moving to New York and living my dream keeps coming into play everywhere I look people are telling me to go to New York and that I'll love it and they can see me living there involved in "fashion" loll my dream will happen one day soon I know!


I can't wait until the day comes when I'm famous for dressing these!


I swear I'll be living here soon!

not good enough

have your ever felt like you weren't good enough for someone? have you tried to change so much about yourself because you think it'll change everything and make them want you? does it ever work? the truth is if they cant handle you at your worse then they don't deserve you at your best and that's on some real shit. its okay to fall in love with someone and they don't love you back just take note that next time don't fall for a person like that, remember what Keyshia Cole said"if he/she ain't gonna love you the way they should then let em go"because I'm sure there's someone out there who will love you and wants too all you gotta do is go out and look. i know everyone says that love is dead and what not but i believe everyone will have their happy ending and right now were young so were not gonna find that true love but maybe you ll end up with that person one day in your future i don't know i just think about stuff like this because i live it Ive felt like this and still kinda do i tried to make myself different for someone else i mean it bettered me but i did it for all the wrong reason so if your out there reading this learn from my mistakes change for you and you only because at the end of the day they might not be there!

work

so for my last hour at work me and my co-worker were pretty bored so here are some pictures of us and where we were. the harvest corner where we helped the kids make lemonade we sat there for an hour before any kids came loll!

Fashionisto

Fashionisto;the male version of a fashionista, some what of a metrosexual, alot of lables, alot of time spent in the hair studio, the "look" is everything.